Day 8- 0.35kg gain on last week

I weighed in for the week today- I am up to 75.05kg. How does this make me feel? Not sure... a bit "meh"! I am anxious about the weekend and about any potential weak moments I might have. I don't trust myslef to make the best choices. That's the bottom line. I can do it mid week so easily- I pack my lunch for work, and that's it- no temptation. Put me in a social situation, where there is plenty of temptation, and I have consistently "given in". I remember a time when I nailed my choices- how do I get back to that mindset?

My plan for today:

B: Ultra bran, blueberries, strawberries, skim milk and breakfast juice
L: Spinach, sweet potato, basmati rice (1/2 cup), low fat feta, pine nuts
D: Rissoles and vegies
S: Nectarine, low fat yoghurt and Bodywise muesli bar
E: Hill run (30 min)

Day 7- Self-loathing

Argh- well, it did all fall apart at the seams on Saturday night, and continued the food carnage into Sunday. There was a least 4 pieces of cake, cabanossi, crackers and dip, bottle and a half of wine and marinara pasta. I weighed in on Monday morning at 76.05kg absolutely revolted with myself. So I made another revelation (I am doing quite well at rediscovering the obvious)- drinking alcohol is not good for weight-loss. As such, I have decided I am on an alcohol free month from today- up until my sister gives birth, when I will have a celebratory champers.

My plan for today is:

B: Ultra bran with strawberries, blueberries, skim milk and juice

L: Spinach, sweet potato salad with no fat dressing

D: Fish fillets with vegies and basmati rice (1/2 cup)

S: Nectarine, low fat yoghurt and bodywise muesli bar

E: 1 hour PT

Day 4- Crunch time

Have nailed my plan yesterday and so far today, so feeling cautiously optimistic. Well I've almost nailed it- I had a small sliver of a cake I baked for Scoop last night- a very nice cake if I do say so myself :) But feeling in control, and constantly asking myself "How much do I want this?". Went to the supermarket and bought healthy food so I am prepared to keep sticking to my plan. The plan is today:

B: Ultra Bran with strawberries and skim milk and small glass of brekkie juice
L: Rice Thins with Extra Light Philly and smoked salmon x 3
D: Healthiest option at pub tonight
S: Yoghurt, white nectarine, nuts
E: Bike intervals with core exercises

Hoping my will power stays strong this evening!!

Day 3- OK

Such an inventive title! Anyway, today I'm feeling OK- I am sticking to my plan so far. Exercising last night made me feel great, and my lower back soreness is starting to dissipate. When I stretched my hamstrings last night, which are normally extremely tight, I felt a very painful pinching sensation- the worst tightness I've ever felt in them. Made me wonder if that was the cause of my lower back pain? Anyway- moral to the story is get stuck into my pre-bedtime stretching again.

My plan for today is:

B: Ultra Bran cereal with strawberries, blueberries, skim milk and glass of brekkie juice.
L: Spinach, sweet potato, l.f. feta, pine nuts and basmati rice (1/2 cup)
D: Lamb steaks with vegies
S: Nectarine, l.f. yoghurt, small slice of sponge cake with cream
E: Run 30 min (not sure if I'll do my hill run or intervals in treadie yet)

I am feeling "ok" as I have included cake in my plan. Now calorie-wise, I've swapped it for my nuts, so have managed to keep the calorie count reasonable for today. Its just the feelings of guilt I still associate with eating cake that's got me feeling just "ok"! And I am feeling nervous about putting my will power to the test tonight- I quite often get to Friday night and get stuck into my two fave comfort foods: red wine and chocolate. So will be working hard to resist that... also Scoop is keen for Indian tonight, which I hope to talk him out of! Another thing I may just go "stuff it" to and get stuck into. How bad do I want this?

Day 2- Feeling more positive

Today so far has felt great- I feel my mood has lifted a little compared to yesterday. I still have lower back stiffness, but still plan to do a gym session today and see how my body reacts to it, whether it adds to the stiffness or loosens me up. I have a theory I am keen to test- my moods are very closely linked at the moment as to whether I am exercising at the time. I know generally that is the case for most people, but I hadn't observed it in myself before until now, but I seem to be literally depressed on the days I don't exercise. Another good reason to be consistent with my training! My food plan today is:

B: Ultra Bran, strawberries, blueberries, skim milk and juice
L: Spinach, sweet potato, low fat feta, pinenuts and basmati rice
D: Low fat satay chicken with rice
S: Nectarine, low fat yoghurt, natural nut mix
E: Bike intervals and core exercises

Goals

I should start out with some goals! I need to make it small, as I think one of my big downfalls of late has been aiming big, falling short, and hence being very disappointed. The negativity just snowballs out of control.

So my first goal will be lose 2kg in 3 weeks.

That is doable!

Day 1

My food for today:

B: Ultra Bran with strawberries, blueberries and skim milk and small glass of breakfast juice

L: Spinach, sweet potato, low fat feta, pine nuts and basmati rice (1/2 cup)

D: Lamb roast with vegies

S: Nectarine, low fat yoghurt, natural nut mix

E: None (sore lower back from PT yesterday)

Feel like I am copping out a bit not going for a run today, but I am of the opinion that a sore lower back should be rested and isn't something to be mucked around with- not the best start to my new blog!!!

Weight: 74.7kg